Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?
There were so many hints.
- My first memory of porn was a story about a teen and her mentor who pressured her to have sex with him.
- When the internet first appeared, I spent hours in chat rooms exposing myself to older men and loving it.
- At 16, an older man tried to pressure me to have sex. I knew it was wrong, but I loved being convinced.
- In college, I didn’t know what I wanted, but I kept asking him to tie me down.
I think I was lucky to have not ended up hurt or being shamed, but I was so confused. I knew I needed something different, but I couldn’t figure out how to ask or where to look.