I woke up this morning feeling nervous. I dealt with the feelings head on.. by going back to sleep. After a lot more sleep, I woke up again. My stomach was upset and I was feeling totally unsettled. I dealt really well this time and went on Facebook.
It’s been hours. I have stuff to get done but I don’t know what is making me feel so icky. I am seeing a play partner tonight. I like seeing him. It’s fun and he is kind. He pushes boundaries but I have never felt too bothered. I have never safe worded. The thought hasn’t even crossed my mind.
Last night, I wanted to cancel. This morning, I don’t know what I want. I feel like puking.
I think it is stress. A lot is going on in my life and I have a vacation coming up. I should be feeling good but instead, I am thinking about all I won’t get done.
I am always a little nervous when I see him but this time I feel really off. I know it will be right in a few hours but until then, more time is wasting away and NOTHING is getting done.