It has been brought to my attention that I might be obsessed with numbers. I disagree. I think I have a very healthy relationship with numbers.
My feelings about my nights camming usually depend on how much I made that hour. Or how many men were in my room. Or how I was rated.
I gained confidence with my body with the knowledge that 500 men were jacking off. I gained pride in my phone sex skills by getting a #1 rating (if only for a moment).
I constantly run numbers. When I am scared, I also run the numbers.
How many years can I live on my savings if I never find a job? What is the statistical probability that I will get hurt bungie jumping? How much will it cost to raise a child alone if I never find someone? What is the violent crime rate in this town? What is the chance I will die of breast cancer?
See? Very healthy!