There is so much to find out in this dating game. I feel like a private investigator mixed with a horny school girl. I ask questions and analyze each answer. I feel like it would be so much easier if we fucked first and talked second. I am not sure this whole “go slow” thing is really the way. I am too nervous to think straight. He hasn’t seen my scars, he hasn’t seen my body, he hasn’t heard my crazy fantasies, and he doesn’t know my history.
I wish I could give him control and see where he takes it. Things would take on a much more comfortable pattern if he were controlling it all.