After receiving some wonderful advice from all of you on my kinky friends post and from a special Dom in my life, I finally reached out to the guy on Fetlife. It was terrifying. It still is.
We went on a date. It was vanilla but the underlying kink made it seem different. We talked a little about fetishes. We talked a lot about vanilla stuff.
Honestly, I am a hell of a lot more scared now. I have had a Dom. He was\ is amazing. He knows everything about me. He knows I cam. He knows my fantasies. He knows my weaknesses. He knows every part of me and thinks I am worthwhile.
How will I ever get there with someone else?