Loosing my virginity was like a race. I didn’t want to loose it to some random guy but I wasn’t working to hold on. I didn’t see virginity as a special gift but a hand grenade missing the plug.
These days, another virginity disappears every month. My ass has been taken, I stripped for a man for the first time, I role played, and got paddled. Unlike the first time when it felt like a race, each first is bitter sweet now.
I don’t love this man. I like him. He helps me to live my fantasy. But will my future Dom find me less worthy now that I have been trained by another man? Will he wish that he was the first to do those things? Will I have baggage or high standards?
Will I wish that I had waited for someone I love?