I now like my body. I am proud of how I look and even the parts that aren’t perfect. I know that my looks hold power and that men want me. Some are even willing to pay to spend time with me. That feels good.
They don’t want my brains or my personality. They are wiling to pay more for my body than I ever thought it was worth. It makes me feel sexy and powerful. It makes me feel valuable and special.
But does it diminish my worth when they won’t pay? Does it decrease my value when I give my body to someone for free?
Just because people will pay doesn’t mean that I am worth less when they aren’t paying me. Although men with money taught me that my body is beautiful, that doesn’t mean that I am ugly when the money isn’t there.