I knew I was becoming more comfortable with myself as a submissive. I have admitted that I want to submit and I am ready to embrace all it entailed. I know that I am gaining strength, loosing fears, and feeling less like a sex addict.
But it hadn’t really hit home. Last night, I finally had the confidence to look my vanilla boy in the eyes and ask, “Why do you keep avoiding the topic?” He admitted that he didn’t understand what I wanted and that he didn’t feel confident.
We talked. For the first time in this journey, I was able to tell him what I needed. I was able to cuddle into him without feeling shame for who I now am. I was able to feel vulnerable and confident in asking for what I wanted.
I was able to tell him there would be an email coming about Teasing and Denial….