Since I have now dealt with or at least admitted to almost all of my sexual fears, I thought it was time to hit the last one.
The first time I tried to explain this to a boyfriend, I was probably 16. I said something like, “If today we are at first base and I want more, tomorrow we will be at second. When I loose my virginity, I will want more too. I will want deeper and harder and faster. Then, I’ll be having butt sex because I am too stretched out. Someday my holes will all be so stretched out that I will need crazy things to get off. Where will it end? Will I have monkeys sticking bananas in all my holes when I’m 80?” The boyfriend stared at me wide eyed and I quickly learned this fear was better kept to myself.
It only scares me more now. Long ago, I could spend a night grinding against a cute boy and be more than satisfied. For a while, I had sweet vanilla sex with no urge to get more. Then I needed a bit of encouragement from a dirty story. What will I do when it gets old? How will I get to the next level when the next level may not be safe?
I hope I have a Master on the day that I start sliding towards monkeys and bananas…
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