My fantasies have never been “romantic” to say the least. They have always included coercion. They frequently include force and pain. On the other hand, I have always been a pussy. My throat is tiny and I’ve been told I am pretty tight. Some shit can really hurt and I don’t like being hurt. How do I explain why this scares me?
It scares the crap out of me that the day I start living this life real time will be the day I loose my deepest fantasies.
What if I hate it? What if being dominated feels just like it sounds to most people, painful and traumatic?
I’ve always thought that I would be so turned on by him being in control that I wouldn’t feel the pain. But what if there is so much pain, I can’t feel the fantasy?
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