I have a history with pain. I have always felt like it cleared my mind, helped me remember important lessons, and gave a unique high. It was a necessary evil like getting shots or pelvic exams. I would probably have been deeply offended if someone said I was a masochist.
As I am learning to accept my submissive nature, I am starting to wonder about whether I am a masochist. In some way, I have always appreciated the power pain can have. I have enjoyed the high and respected pain as a memorable event.
At this point, I don’t seek sexual gratification from pain. Although I could probably learn to associate pain with pleasure….